hi everybody

well first of all i am bored, so i decided to start my other site in construction. so right now my poptartinthetoasterovensite is under construction, but visit it sometime k? i think ill be switching over from this site to that one, cuz i like that sn so much more. lolz anyhowz its www.xanga.com/poptartinthetoasteroven  its my poptarts site that actually has a poptart background. well yeah okee dokeez take care all and byebye.

this sucks....today was about the crappiest day ever. i got fricken lectured by my violin teacher today. she said that its really "not working" and basically she doesnt want to be my violin teacher anymore unless if i fricken start practicing chokus. like im going to have to practice at LEAST 1/2 and hour a day! dammit i dont have time for shit like that. here's my schedule: wake up at 5:40, get ready for school, go to school, go to judo at 4:00, judo ends at 6:00, but i dont leave till about 6:30 sometimes now that my mom just went back to work, then we pick up my brother get dinner, and i dont get home till about 7:30, then i take a shower and eat and then its about 8:15, then probably till 8:30 at the earliest ill be able to get on the comp to do my homework, so from 8:15 till whenever i can get on i ice myself, cuz im normally super sore, like seriously. if i get sore, im sore for at least a week at a time. like if i hurt my knee, it was sore for about 3 weeks, so ice my soreness from now on. yeahg well thats my daily schedule then i normally go to sleep at 11 if im lucky. yeah well i have to find a way to shove in 1/2 an hour of practicing, but i cant practice after nine, cuz violins at night really irritate the neighbors when they are trying to sleep. lolz. and come to find out, my mom has now officially blocked me from aim. i cant aim anybody, but i want to so bad. she just wants to fuck over my life and make sure i have no friends to talk to at all for the rest of my life. shit i hate this. sorry for my really bad language, but shit im ticked off. i cant go on aim, my time limits are like 2 hours a day on the internet. thats such bullshit. my parents blame my bad grades on the computer. they said ever since we got the new computer my grades slip. but its cuz, hell yeah i couldnt handle what happened this year. all the shit that went on with all the assholes in this world, who decided to pick on me this year, and to tick me off. this year fucking sucked! i hate it, if i could i would take this year and fricken shoot it in the head.lolz  ive given up in a lot of crap, ive made my decision: i dont fucking care about anything, and from now on i have a few priorities i need to take care of first....

1. my grades, cuz theyve recently gone to crap, i mean im passing and all, but they are total crap

2. judo, cuz the season is almost over, so might as well make the best of it

3. violin, i need to practice, im not ready to give up playing the violin. its cuz im such an orch dork

4. and i think this summer itll be conditioning, which includes karate. i really have to go back to karate,

yeah so basically that is the shit of my priority list. i dont give a fuck about all those fucking bastards out there who are trying to screw me over, cuz they can just shut the fuck up, cuz i really dont care about them. and if i dont want to talk to you, then you better fucking stay out of my way, and those people who i dont want to talk to, know who they are, so if youre not sure if its you or not, then its not you. but if you have any question in your mind that you would like settled just ask me. but okay ill stop being such a bitch, and ill cheer up.

um basically here's the upside to following my priority list:

1. my grades could get better, which is something really osum!

2. judo, well its pretty okee dokee, its really good conditioning, and has helped me a lot this year. lolz.

3. if i practice maybe i can get a lot better, and then maybe ill actually be good enough

4. karate...i wont be a dissapointment if i go back, cuz if i dont go back it might be a dissapointment to all the sensei's including the head one in japan, if he remembers me. cuz he told me the next time he comes down to hawaii he will be looking for me, and he gave special instructions to the sensei's for me, so i dont want to screw up, so itll be good if i can do this. oh yeah and its good anger management, and obviously i need some of that lolz. cuz when im ticked off i go and form a syndicate lolz.

and number 5. it'll detach me emotionally from a lot of things, therefore no emotional attachment = no drama nor traumaz. lolz so itll be all better.

yeah so thats the upside, and downsides, but itll all be good in the end i guess. and i think i need to get used to life without aim, i know itll all benefit me in the end, but i need aim, its a total addiction. its like drugs, you cant just cut someone off drugs at one time. you have to cut them down slowly. its the same for me. but i dont get that opportunity, so i just have to work with what im given. but itll all be okay i guess. ill just have to deal with it! cuz thats life. yeah this is such a long blog, but then again i always write really long blogs so this doesnt make much of a difference. but yeah i hope everyone is doing okay, and if youre not, and need someone to talk to, im always here, but just not available through aim lolz. but yeah i hope everyone is fine and osum, and take care to everyone, and byebye.

lalalalalalalalalalalalala!

yay! i survived the run today! yippee! thought i was going to die, but i didnt. but yeah. so anyhowz, whats up? im bored as hell, but then again i am always bored as hell. its pretty funny to make fun of people, as evil as that is. i think i should try to be a nicer person, lolz. anyhowz it doesnt matter cuz there is always the syndicate...i must not turn nice and good, for the sake of the syndicate. just kidding. anyhowz the syndicate has about 30 members, but i didnt try to recruit any new members since the first day. pretty retarded yes i know, but its kinda funny. i mean to form a whole group of people with a hit list and everything lolz. anyhowz we gots the two top hit man's lolz... matt chun lum and kyle. its so funny. but anyone who would like to join the syndicate, just let me know, cuz we can always add you to the list. and i owe the word syndicate to kaya, cuz if it werent for her i wouldnt know what the word syndicate was, she introduced me to the word. anyhowz yeah join the syndicate! lolz. but im bored...lalalalalalala....tomorrow is the may day concert, what fun*sarcasm* orchestra is so BORING!!!!! i mean i used to really like playing the violin and all, but doc makes it so damn boring, and there is no motivation for me anymore to actually try to be good at playing the violin, so i suck, and i am crap at the violin. my playing in various positions have definetely degraded. im learning a new song in my lessons, which is okay. but im learning second position, i HATE second position! yeah well tomorrow i gots to go to my lessons at 9:55 am, so i have to leave my house at about 9:30, then i gots to go to the may day concert right after my lessons. that sucks...two orchestra playing thingyz one after another. why the hell is no one on aim? get your asses on aim right now! just kidding. anyhowz i shouldnt go on aim tonight, i should go to sleep, for tomorrow shall be a long day. anyhowz take care everyone, be happy, try not to stress out too much, and byebye!

im bored!

hahaha well anyhowz today was an okay day. um we watched a video in science today, and dont you want to touch lava. i mean if it couldnt burn you and stuff. doesnt it look so fake. yeah cherith is cool cuz she's the only person who doesnt look at me like im insane like many others do when i say this. but it looks like firery lit up play-doh! i like play-doh. play-doh is coolest. you smash it and throw it at people and mix all the colors till they come gross and yucky colors, then you get it stuck in the carpet, get yelled at by mommy and try your best to remove all pieces of it from the carpet and throw it away. well actually that never happened with me before. my parents werent crazy enought to let me play with play-doh, cuz i wouldve most likely dropped play-doh all over.  when i was little i used to play with power rangers and watch power rangers and all those shows. i dont really know why im talking about this lolz. but anyhowz i did my science lab which was so boring! and i did some of my geo which was so boring too! and luckily i dont think i have japanese homework, thank you God, cuz i dont want to do any japanese!im sleepy sleepy sleepy sleepy sleepy! i want to go to sleepy, but yet im bored and too lazy to go to sleepy, if that even makes sense. hmm...what should i do? well yeah im bored and i dont have anything to do, so okee dokee byebye!